I am grateful for...
11 March 2018
It’s Mother’s Day. My children are my world and I love them so much. I am looking forward to catching up with them later as they are beyond busy today...so see you later Jack and Fifi.
I was on Laura Henrys training hub yesterday where Jane Evans was speaking. I’ve heard her before, amazing lady trying to treat us all from our previous traumas.
Ok, I have always thought...I have no trauma, lucky me. But when she was speaking yesterday I had to hide my face as she talked about trauma during pregnancy. Her message was the effect on babies, but something went PING in my brain. My amazing mother died when I was pregnant. My first baby was born a month later. As the penny dropped on the trauma I went through my eyes started to sting. Mid talk I recovered my thoughts quickly, but today I’m realising this was probably the reason for his prematurity, born a month after her death. I still have such a big thing about this. How can you cope with the mixed emotions of the birth of your first child and the death of the one person who has influenced how I mother my own children. I probably never properly dealt with any of those emotions properly, and probably never will. However I was truly grateful for the afternoon session all about looking after ourselves! Our profession is always to do with giving ourselves to children, we need to take care of ourselves better to do that.
So today Jane Evans and Laura Henry, I am grateful for your words of wisdom yesterday, I am grateful to have had the most incredible Mother and role model. I am grateful for my lovely children. I am going to start some new positive routines in my life to look after me!
(Picture is me and my lovely mummy walk-in in the woods)